so its been a while since ive been to see any live music. anyone mind tellin me why its treated more like going to the circus than it is music. i want elephants damnit.

Conditions deem it necesary to let you all know that under no circumstances should it ever be acceptable to "weez da juice"

Plain and simple, im perturbed, i say that because being the smart-allecky type i am with spunk and wit, (yes spunk, you bastard) i am not supposed to be upset
or depressed, i have humor .....and pills for that. but im finding it harder and harder to rationalize my place here. wether its between spending my days alone in my room wondering, or walking the video dept in walmart at 1 am thinking how if i was a third shift walmart employee, that i would want my fallow miserable heart broken braised bashed and beaten to an insubstantially thin wisp of concsienceness so that i would no longer feel empathy or compassion for the lonely girl looking at patty labelle cds or the wandering child balling his eyes out for attention when his parents are 5 feet away playing the new gamecube game. i wouldnt care because i wouldnt be me, id be dead on the inside. my empathic output would be equal to or less than the compassionate input i recieve. and what pray tell leaves me with this god awful simulacrum of depressing trite crap. Love and progress. cause damnit
im afraid im gonna be one of those old men in that movie with john candy where he marries the morgue girl and worries about his mother so much, you know the one where there are like 4 old dudes that have a "bachelors club" because they had the "luck" of reaching there upper 80s without ever feeling so passionately in love that it hurt not to be with that person. yeah one of those guys. Suck? you know it. oh and i believe theres a shanty somewhere in my future too. double suck. OH OH and this girl from work didnt gimme back my damn suicide machines cd, thats what really hurts. deep to the core of my soul kinda hurt. damn, cant believe it. oh but reggie and the.......oh shit, i just realized i may have missed the reggie and the full effect show in chapel hill, damnit life blows.

Right now im listening to "momma dont take my codachrome" by some guy whose name i have not had the pleasure of knowing.

"can i test it with my combobulator and crc error check the eeprom and make sure it has the proper jigawatts?"

Summer was interesting, got my first taste of teacher-dom with disabled peeps. It was an experience and i had fun every minute, met new folks and made new friends. Ah the life of man who hath not yet realized that fates conspire towards his lonelieness and solitude, BOOYAH. Well sure i may not get the girl.....ever, but i sure have fun livin me life, ARR. Just got a job at Ritz camera on wendover, hopefully ill be able to keep it for awhile. Thomas should take particular note of this fact considering the incesant jibes Aj and I give him about photography being bullshit when it comes to art. Bought a computer, hope to try my hand at flash and dreamweaver, we all know how the ladies flock to that like flies in the oh so proverbial ointment. Still unsure about school this year, but getting asured i have nothing to worry about at everycorner. This years prime stock of hotyoungtalent should be well recieved by all. Or so thats what the guy in the registrars office said....and with that i bid you a fond ....Adieu.

Alright everybody right a story that happened to them, that is funny and or blah. O K... V E R y N I C E I N D E E D Y A Y

Date:	2003-03-29 12:22
Subject:	Chaos and Fractals
Security:	Public
Mood:	awake

Just woke up, played some Zelda, thought about finally buying that faux-fur to line my denim vest with, and now im ....typing. I had this crazy dream about how aliens finally came to earth in the form of spiders that live in lil' monkeys tum tums, like the monkey marcel off of friends. and when the monkeys crap and mix it with human bloood (dont ask me why?) it forms this deadly arachnid. oh and also i remember at somepoint i was in a forest and i lost my pills and while looking for them i found another thing of pills with my name on them from 1996, and the pills were called AOL. hmmmmm disturbing? you tell me. well time to put some pants on. adios.

Date:	2003-03-28 18:37
Subject:	shooga
Security:	Public
Mood:	discontent

as my beleaugered mind falls prey to the slime and vice of the world, i focus on one thing that keeps me together in the crap-osity of the world today at large. what is it you might say? well to thee i say Hall and Oates.

Well, just now recovering from running spot-op for the ever friendly GREENSBORO COLLEGE PHOTOGRAPHY CLUB's FASHION SHOW, emphasis placed for the visually impaired, and or prospective college student/transfer student. All was well as pale flesh burned away from the infinitely incadescent spotlight of 15000 watts, fun was had by all looking for an entertaining evocative night of fun and edutainment. There were quite a few attractive females, and as a male spot-op is oft to do, i found myself on many occaision to think not with my head but with my hot as the sun spot light, shame on me.......And with that awkward moment behind me, its time for this lil' presidential candidate to-be to go beddy bye... till brighter skies bring wider smiles. your pal, the D - man.